Have you ever had to force yourself to eat more? Sometimes my body is used to eating less because I had given it a lot less in my ED days. Sometimes certain foods don’t digest too well. It might be those shirataki noodles I had today.
1200 used to be the magic number. It is not anymore. Why? Would you give someone who is in a coma less than 1200 calories? No, never. So why would I give myself, who is walking around at the very least, less than that? This BLEW MY MIND. My body needs fuel, but more so, my brain needs it. Seriously, that’s what went away (my mental and psychological health) with ED.
So why was I full?
- A. My gut needs help.
- B. I’m ate more protein today.
- C. I shouldn’t eat shirataki noodles and things like it. Yes, it’s 40 calories for a whole bag but really, it’s not super tasty and it’s texture appears hard to digest. We all make mistakes.
- D. I need to eat more earlier.
- E. I’m on my period.
The bigger issue is counting calories. I still do it. I will go weeks without doing it, but I always have a general idea because I was a calorie counter for years. I like the numbers and stats – it’s comforting. So wait, does that still mean I have ED in another form? Probably not.
No work yesterday. Not by choice. But here is what I did do: I slept in until 10:30. I’ve been really tired since I took sleeping pills the last 2 nights. Sure, it knocks me out, but I don’t get 8 hours of sleep so I’m still tired. I got my workout in early. Maybe this article is true – my body was sore or cold and it hurt to work out immediately after waking up. I got to toast bread for this sandwich. Chicken, salami, cheese, and avocado oh my! On another note, I was starring at my avocado oatmeal face mask and thought how annoyed I get when people spell avocado wrong. I love avocados and it’s an injustice to spell it wrong! I read for class. It took forever because it’s boring… and I didn’t learn anything new. I took a nap. I told you I was tired! I finished my homework. What a struggle! I made a faux pad Thai dish for dinner. Shirataki noodles in peanut sauce (it doesn’t soak into the noodles though) with broccoli, sauteed onions, and 1 egg + 1 egg white. I watched “Pretty Little Liars.” I also watched the preview episode of “The Bachelor.” I’ve never watched the series, but Juan Pablo is hot. The girls look alike am I right? And then… I spotted someone in the blog world in the auditions – she should’ve made it! I was stuffed after dinner, but I hadn’t eaten anything besides the 2 meals above and a Quest bar so I forced myself to have something else. I made a French toast protein shake with lots of cinnamon. Okay, I didn’t really have to force myself – it’s delicious! All this barely hit 1200 calories. 😦 Now I’m bloated and my boobs hurt, probably because Aunt Flow is visiting. No more food… Last thing, I’ve heard a lot about kabocha squash and bone broth. Well, my aunt gave me kabocha squash in bone broth to take home and have tomorrow. Apparently, this is an Asian dish. Huh. So, tell me… have you ever had to force yourself to eat more?